I love to cook. But im not a chef... I just cook something that people can eat... And so i dont feel hungry. 

No, i dont cook to prove that i'm a better person. Because never i will be... I will never be a better person if mom never feel happy for me or i can't make her happy.

Whenever i misses her, i try to connect. Sometime i texted her, sometime i called. But... But usually it happened at the wrong time. 

Whenever i misses her, i just cook... Anything that i can cook, and pretend that she is cooking my favorite meal for me. 

COOKING

I love to cook. But im not a chef... I just cook something that people can eat... And so i dont feel hungry.  No, i dont cook to prove that ...

COOKING

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Everything is different now. 

We meet each other but we didnt connect... No talk, no more jokes. I almost forgot when was the last time we laugh our heart out... Together.

The space between us seems so distant. I just couldnt bridge the gap. 

We're just living in misery, bears a grudge against everyone, looking at the dark side, bears the pain... 

While everyone still living together, somehow i do feel apart. Nevertheless, never i will be envy your happiness. You all deserved to be happy... Being so closed to your own blood. Caring, cheering each other. I do, always try to be on the same boat, but i guess it just didnt have enough space for me to fit in...    

Different

Everything is different now.  We meet each other but we didnt connect... No talk, no more jokes. I almost forgot when was the last time we l...

Different

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8th of june 2015

I finally give up and realized that i cannot bear the pain. It was the time we were rushed to the hospital. I called numbers of hospital to find available surgeon to attend my case... Since it is quite an emergency only Dr Robert is available for walkin appointment and i just hope he could give the best consultation. 

We went to the sunway medical centre. It was our first time... Doctor was good, but their services not as good as the price we paid. Something wrong with the admission and discharge management. It took 4 hours to settle out the admission and yes... Another 5 hours to discharge on the next day...

The emergency surgery, the long hours waiting and the pain for sure...caused me in despair...sad, afraid, guilty and which i have becoming inapproriately emotional for few days. 

I didnt talk, i refused foods... I hate to take a bath, i can't sleep!! It was freaking uncomfortable. And hurt!!!

EMOTIONAL

8th of june 2015 I finally give up and realized that i cannot bear the pain. It was the time we were rushed to the hospital. I called number...

EMOTIONAL

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Life is like a pack of tim tam...

Life is like a box of chocolate

Life is like a pack of tim tam...

Life is like a box of chocolate

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I didn't realize that i've been wasting too much time on phone. 

Talking to myself

And crying in bed. 

Isolated

I didn't realize that i've been wasting too much time on phone.  Talking to myself And crying in bed. 

Isolated

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When we sit together... We didn't realize that beautiful light shining from above

We're too busy stealing each other's sight

I wish you see me pretty as white chandelier

When we sit together... We didn't realize that beautiful light shining from above We're too busy stealing each other's sight

I wish you see me pretty as white chandelier

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2 days before the actual 23rd of march 2015, jeed and family surprised me with a tiramisu cake while we're having our dinner. It was a small family gathering. The whole family was there... Well almost all of them. They quite excited to celebrate earlier... And what am i to say NO to cake? 

I am officially 32 this year. Never i thought my friends will surprise me with a whole cake over lunch. It was hot sunny day... I was craving for an ice cream but they insist me to blow the candles. 

I was touched. I am too old for that... But they made me feel like still 23..  

My sis surprised me with carrot cake and lots of meal once i got home. My bad... I didn't take any photos. I was too excited!!! Mom safely reached home from umrah just before midnight. So we had a chance to chat over late dinner and they surprised me with a big box wrapped in brown color paper. It has a pink v line at the front box.  

I was so excited. I got a sewing machine for my 32 birthday!!!

There's nothing more to say.... I cried when i all i wanted to say is Thank You!

HAPPY 32

2 days before the actual 23rd of march 2015, jeed and family surprised me with a tiramisu cake while we're having our dinner. It was a s...

HAPPY 32

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When I got lost and I can't force my mouth to speak.

It doesn't mean I want you to ignore me

Neither I am running away nor you have to stay

I just confuse

How to react and not hurting you

So I choose to be with myself…

Maybe we need some space

To forgive

and

To accept

APART

When I got lost and I can't force my mouth to speak. It doesn't mean I want you to ignore me Neither I am running away nor ...

APART

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You will fight for anything just to be at the top. Once you won, and you feel nothing but awfully lonely... Still. That was the time when you blame the rest of living being and maybe you be mad at god. 

But you forgot... Being happy not necessarily has to place yourself above of everything! But move on... Go with the flow. 

HIGHEST PEAK

You will fight for anything just to be at the top. Once you won, and you feel nothing but awfully lonely... Still. That was the time...

HIGHEST PEAK

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art of love is when you see a daughter gets clingy and mother don't mind carrying her and continue walking... No matter what, no matter when, no matter how.

I WALK WITH YOU

art of love is when you see a daughter gets clingy and mother don't mind carrying her and continue walking... No matter what, no ...

I WALK WITH YOU

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Not meant to be a hero...

But everyone else deserves a chance to fight... Chasing dreams that seem real before the alarm rings. 

Because this long incredible journey yet to reveal secrets from those waking dreams... So why should i wait?

I may not be a hero... But i just want to fight like everyone elae. 

Hero

Not meant to be a hero... But everyone else deserves a chance to fight... Chasing dreams that seem real before the alarm rings.  Because thi...

Hero

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